When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

This is the last song you sang me and ur gone, isnt this what you wanted? telling me you dont belong here.Oliver, i am worried abt you..it seems i cant get over you.Give me a call or something to tell me you are still fucking alive?

Mood:Crying

Went to tampaines yesterday to work for michael with Jay Jay, Gabriael,Cheng han, Liang seng, Fahren and gahred( the cute twins),Johnathan,Tiff and Jacky.Saw sharon yow (Sexay mama) at tm lawls. It was kinda fun and tiring though and i met sharon later in e evening at bedok Macs to have dinner.Sharon, and those butch you showed me are kinda hawt , me likey :D especially the one with the tatt haha!okay after dinner something happened haha! was in the train heading to paris..was reading my ss textbk and listening to my ipod.This Guy who sat beside me wrote me a text and pass me his phone. I was baffled- Hello, may i know what are you studying.Okay errr if you gonna ask for my number then just go ahead haha!And then came his mum , Guess thats his luck then. Well he said bye hahaha! it was freaking hilarious. What a day..

When to Jia yi house yesterday to study till evening. Her brother was at home and he cooked chicken nuggets for us haha err actually didnt really cook it ,easiest, healthier and fastest way -Microwave:D hhaha! as the day goes by, bitching and bitching non stop.Left her place in the evening and went to meet khadir at e airport.Taught me maths at coffee bean , hilarious shit. The rules goes like this: If i got a question right , i must be rewarded ( sound kinda kinky though gawd) haha!And we had dinner at BK. Time flies really fast and we caught the last bus home.I am going off soon to meet michael and friends later at tm.Finally got a job woohooo:D ok ciaoo

Lost my dignity, self respect, family motivation,beloved mother.Gain? nothing. Got back my preliminary results today , shit tell me abt it. It never happen to me before,at the age of 13 and 14, my academics are top of the level and now? I am just a plain dumb fuck. Never expect my life to turn out this way.Mr nizam consulted me today and told me that i may not make it to sec 5 which is a dissapointment due to some reasons which have to do with e law.I therefore self proclaim am a dumb fuck ( which i am not proud of) and i am gonna prove all that bloody bitches out there who claim i could not make it haha:D . Alright gonna study now.

Waiting for malcolm under the block (not his block haha!),rain pouring heavily for a past half an hour and i am finnally back here , in his house sick ( beeatch :D) thanks to you haha , glad that i have my comfy sweater with me .. random ppl walking pass thinking i was insane smoking my arse off in the middle of the night.. Gawd its five plus now and we just finish having breakfast at macs or should i say dinner haha!. Malcolm is sleeping on the couch beside me aww so sweet:)omg okay he fell asleep.Went over his place around nine? Monik went into hyperness , kept clinging onto me like i am some gold bar haha! omg so weird. Studied in his living room and malcolm drown the ants haha freaking hilarious.. okay gotta have my beauty sleep now ciao:D

Mood: depressed

Prelims are finally over and levels are coming up, damm i am feeling so stressed out, well supposed to meet joseph today but fuck it i am gonna meet tiff today =D.Gonna go work out at the gym and maybe swimming at cheng han house woohoo haha! Theres alot of emotions going on in my mind and i have no idea why.. maybe i am just in love with him. Well i dont know if he does the same way..guess i have to let nature takes it course..alright i am gonna go now, ta-ta.


I need you:)

When out around 8 with sylvia to drink at mac cafe, ps theres no starbucks or whatsoever at pasir ris( paris :D) haha and decided to meet up again at 3 in the morning. So i stayed up studying till Oliver called haha! We decided to meet up so he came over to my place in the morning around 1 i guess? . It was hilarious , taught me math in the living room and i got bored ..so i decided to take out my bio book and scribble haha! Went down for a smoke and watch the night sky, it was romantic and lovely , just the two of us.As hours passed like speed of lightning , its time for oliver to leave , gawddd :( and i went up and catch some sleep for an hour? haha!


ILY Oliver:D

When out yesterday with louis and sharon.It was a blast , when to bk to have lunch haha and waited for louis . Gawd i wonder wat he did in the shower . I am still waiting for louis to send me the pics so apparently i cant post it up yet. Its been so log since i last seen sharon. Decided to head down to coffee bean for a drink but apparently it was full house same goes to starbucks. Was kinda pissed off so we finally found a place 'Coffee club" woohoo so much better than coffee bean and starbucks. The place is sexay and classy :D .Cut to the chase, i went home and talk over the phone with Sean . Okay i almost cried haha..Wtf right? ohoh and i waited for oliver to come home , hell i fell asleep! so sorry :( . Slyvia is coming over today woohoo :D

Woke up at 5.30 am by Oliver:D haha he offered to stay up to wake me up to get ready for sch incase i overslept and fail my god damm prelims haha! It was really sweet though( blushing) haha he was having some party last night and asked me out well i was too busy with studies( ok honestly it was like last min, shhhh).Kept listening to song he send me ( sang by him) over and over again in my ipod lawls, gawd i am love sick haha.I miss him like literally. He was too busy today and have to attend functions, we didnt really text much though :( . Suppose to chill out with louis at starbucks today but had last min changes due to his laziness haha! For that he owes me my espresso:D right louis?? haha! okay i am trying my best to comprehend this bazziar topic' Probability' ok i had like zero for it i think hahah! Well i am going back to studies now, gonna wait for oliver to come home.


Love,
cherilynn

Okay i know i am fat needless to say haha. Went to subway at East Coast today i swear the service is like shit( opps) haha its super slow gawd.. Supposed to study today but ended up cam whoring lol. Oh oh and Oliver came back today:D and i finally know how to solve a chemical equation. Broken Family+Failure in relationships=No mood to study haha ! Sch tmr gawdd its gonna be a long day , time to do facial ta-ta:D

Happy birthday Singapore=D. This year Performance is way better than the previous.I just got my cucumber facial done and gonna study later haha i have no life.Oh this afternoon i remembered asking my brother to get me cucumber from the nearby grocery store..well he gave me a baffle expression and asked why i needed it for haha. I was like its for facial bitch ,like duh ..What can i do with a cucumber , its either i eat it up or blah blah haha! ohh wait i dont eat vegetables, i dislike them. The medication i am taking is making my lips oh ooh ohhhh haha! it looks like its bleeding gawdd.Okay anways i am gonna meet malcolm tmr, monik miss meee:D. Subway cookies again:D

Woohoo i just finish reading Betrayed,not literally finish the whole book but just one of the chapters haha! Blood lust mmm sounds suggestive haha! damm this book is addictive(the parts with seduction,it was the blast) =D, Erik and heath seems hawt though.. oh wait what am i talking abt? haha anways i went out with malcolm..ate subway and check out the japanese fish market.The peanut butter cookies was the bomb i swear its way better than sex haha!Cut to the chase we went over to one of the pubs at East coast and drank there , got tipsy wipsy:D. Oh oh and a topless indian guy caught Malcolm's attention.Malcolm: ewww he didnt shave his pubic hair. I was like no kidding ,damm thats gross but he is hawt though. Guess what it turns out to be his tatt,i was laughing my ass off. Here comes the saddest part, Oliver Francis is gonna go overseas :( no more night chats nooooo. But he called before he left haha and gonna meet up with each other once he is back=totally awesome hehe.Ohhhh its 2 plus already, gonna have my beauty sleep soon.

IMY Oliver

Classes till evening, night classes, tuition...Hell! i have been feeling rather stressed out lately.Been in sch and talking crap (you should know,shhh) haha!so anyways i have been talking to Oliver Francis now and then( woohoo my stress reliver).He is really sweet though.I have fetish for guys who plays the guitar and well a good vocalist(hope he is not reading it hee)..Wooohoo perfecto haha!well he sang me hero and i am yours by jason maraz, damm i almost melted :) okay i just got off my mobile, Sean called=D its been so longg haha!Anyways i have to do some shitty revision.Ciao